No matter what I say or do, it is not the right thing.
I know no one reads my blogs, but I enjoy them. Even if I don't write as often as I should.
Tonight I am just sad. I never seem to have the right words, or am not completely present when others expect me to be there. I don't do enough, but I'm always exhausted trying to keep up. I start to wonder why I continue to try, but then something else pops up that I need to do. So no time to think.
Time to sleep, my day starts so early and ends so late. What I do is often not enough. Struggling to do more in the small space of time each day allows. But it never seems good enough for those who judge by what I do not by the intent behind it.
I just need a few hours to sleep so I can start each day over again and hopefully do better. I know it will never be good enough for those with super high standards that I will never reach. But I will try.